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The Seemingly Endless List of Things that Give Me Hives 

Latest addition: kimchi fried rice 

Yogyakarta

Decompression Sickness

I'm done man, I'm worn out, I'm happy and I've had enough. God help us. 

Having A Cold

I woke up this morning next to you. You were too tired to get up and I had a reading group to go for. I I didn't feel like talking a lot today. It was too hot and I was having a cold. My head was all fuzzy and the sun didn't help. Came back and we shopped for fishes at Clementi because your fish keep dying and they're all bottom feeders anyway. We took 15 minutes to catch it, but you managed to get a blue "African fish" for me because I liked it. My sister and I went to the supermarket and then cooked dinner for my dad and then we all watched Infernal Affairs 3 together. It was a really nice day aside from the fact that I've been blowing my nose into toilet paper for two days because we had run out of tissues and I'm considering stuffing a wad of it into my nostril to soak up my drippy mucus.

Chinese New Year 2014

A tragic hero is one who has a fatal flaw. Because he cannot change, he is ruined. 

Humans can change and it seems like we must if we want to live and be happy. It is an illusion to imagine that a person cannot and does not change. All the time our situations and persons are changing and if we can acknowledge it then there is at least some hope that we can put up sails and direct a safe way through, rather than run sideways into the current and wreck ourselves. 

I hope to become less stubborn, I don't want to lose sight of important things. I don't want to get myself into trouble I can't get out of. I don't want to ruin myself forever. I don't want to die. 

Everytime I see you in the world

I can't stop thinking or talking about what a insane album this is. I've been listening to this song nearly every day since I heard it for the first time, tripped out on shit at a new girl's house. Not like this is my favourite band in the world right now but after reading their lyrics on RapGenius I can't help but feel awe at how rich their songs are and how similar their world view is to mine, I guess to plenty of other young people out there in the world today who live in cities and question the existence of God, among other things. And they are living, breathing, performing artists and this world is developing in tandem with their commentary of it and I know that in many, many, many years I will listen to this music and today, this month, this year, whatever lay inside of the thin borderlines of the bubble of my youth will come crashing back into me.

This Morning

Once I had a love and it was a gas

Soon turned out had a heart of glass 

Blue

Every day there is a time where the sky is the same colour as the sea and the horizon becomes invisible. Standing on the other side of these glass walls you can imagine the ships floating by are floating not on water but in the sky. 

Time

Every day I look at you I know I love you more and more and it's filling up my body and tingling in the ends of my fingers and toes. 

Horses

We wanted to be pure and beautiful. We sang and we danced, and we listened to music with the volume turned all the way up. We drove our cars fast and looked for experiences bigger than our imaginations. We dug into each other and saw our reflections tenfold. We created a life bigger than ourselves. We laughed together and held each other through feelings.  It was better than being alone, hiding in corners pretending to disappear. The world could have us and we could have the world too. Everything was fine. All we wanted was to stay alive and we could.