Do you feel overwhelmed when good things happen to you?
Yeah, I still feel that way a lot.
Why do you feel weird? Isn't this what you always wanted?
Maybe I just wanted these things because I wanted to get what I want, and I didn't care about the thing at all.
So do you know what you want now?
Not really. It always changes, but I'm figuring it out. It's like some sort of sick process. If I want something I go and get it and then when I get it I can then see if I wanted it at all to begin with.
That's perverse. That sounds tiring and a bit selfish.
Yeah you're right. It is tiring. And I am a bit selfish. So what?