Wednesday, January 1, 2014

In 2013 I did the following things:

  • Spent a lot of time in driving class with Mr Yeow who frequently tells me I am "cartoon" "cowgirl" "hero" "smart" "careless" "cute" "stupid" "sotong". I just spent 3.5 hours in the car today.
  • Lasted at my day job for much longer than I've ever spent at a job, or expected to. Still falling in and out of love with it, but it treats me well so I cannot possibly complain 
  • Made new friends, a lot of new friends. Good friends and bad friends. Some fell out along the way, but the good ones are always hanging around and it only gets better and better.
  • Took a lot of flights alone. Went to London twice, cried my eyeballs out at the airport twice. Went to Hong Kong five times or something, hung around tiny apartments and all over Central with Xiu. It gets easier and easier. I pack my bag in the morning and I don't even think about it. But leaving always kicks me with a huge dread and the bite never goes away, I still don't know what it is. The only time I flew with people this year was Bangkok most recently, and Hong Kong before that. Other than that it's just been me and my face masks. It really makes a huge difference traveling with people.
  • Saw my grandmother pass away. It was hard seeing her go.
  • Listened to an inordinate amount of Bob Dylan, discovered a fierce new love for Vampire Weekend, went to a few festivals where I realised that it's impossible to pick up new music the way I used to
  • Drank a lot of beer and wine
  • Learned new card games
  • Picked up a breakfast habit with my dad, three times a week at either Amoy/Maxwell/Hong Lim 
  • Slept less and less and less, with the appropriate dark eyes and eyebags to show for it. 
  • Took a lot of taxis, and antihistamines.
  • Sank deeper and deeper into the ongoing black hole of a relationship that I am in, with no end in sight... this is s a good thing of course.
  • Wrote less and less in my diary, which is bad
  • Watched a lot of movies in cinemas, which is immensely enjoyable. Read less books and watched less shit on my laptop, aside from The Sopranos (still haven't started on Season 6)
  • Kept the same weight, lost some weight of my face, but mostly I feel like the same person
  • Took care of my terrapin through a bad sickness where I had to inject him with vitamins and happily he is now 1.5 years old and very healthy. 
  • Watched less movies than ever because I was saving them for watching with people who weren't around a lot... 
  • Felt a bit more certain of some things about myself, a lot of questions were brought up this year and largely answered. There will always be some room for interpretation and the idea of the self is a very gray, loose one but I am always working towards continuity and unity and the way to do that is keep focused on the converging and not diverging elements in my life. Of course though there will be ruptures at some point, as there are every day.

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