Leaving Los Feliz

Life is pretty great

Current mood

Down to the bottom

Then You Die

Pulled out my wisdom teeth

Day 2 of not eating solid food. It's not as easy as I expected. The bag of chips I didn't eat before the op "because I had no mood" is now taunting me. 

For dinner I poured my soup through a strainer and threw in ice cubes to cool it down until it was lukewarm, like fresh piss. After swallowing it in 30 seconds I spent the rest of the time jealously staring at my dad scooping steamed rice and meat into his mouth. 

If this keeps up I'm going to have a 6 pack next week... And that would be so disgusting. 

Of Course

Of course I was afraid. But that didn't change anything. It came and it went and now I know I will know that it will no longer haunt me. 

Why do I weep so

The summation of much pre-Socratic theology and philosophy can be stated as follows: The kosmos is not as it appears to be, and what it probably is, at its deepest level, is exactly that which the human being is at his deepest level—call it mind or soul, it is something unitary which lives and thinks, and only appears to be plural and material. Much of this view reaches us through the Logos doctrine regarding Christ. The Logos was both that which thought, and the thing which it thought: thinker and thought together. The universe, then, is thinker and thought, and since we are part of it, we as humans are, in the final analysis, thoughts of and thinkers of those thoughts.

http://deoxy.org/pkd_how2build.htm

Poms

Dreamt of a man who had two really fluffy Pomeranians that he was totally devoted to. Then one morning he woke up and they were missing from his bed. He was really distraught. It was then revealed to me that he was a CIA spy and had been wearing pheromones spray that came in a little gray tube. I held the tube in my hand and accidentally sprayed it on the man sitting next to me. Nothing really changed. I was still thinking about the CIA man having to choose between his career and his dogs. 

Sometimes

Sometimes he's terrible and sometimes he's not that bad

Sometimes it's mild anxiety and sometimes it's full blown dread. 

Sometimes I find myself asleep on the floor. 

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever love anybody more. 

Grace

I spent the evening with my two favourite cousins who are male and whose names start with the letter "J" and it was so nice.